No baby...for now.

After egging on my husband and completing our trilogy, I realized I am quite satisfied with the two we have. Going from 2 to 3 is a much bigger step than going from 1 to 2. It was so hectic the other day getting our kids out the door to school and then an evening of them both. Honestly, I don't think my husband helps as much as he could with the kids, and with 3, I would require so much more from him. Our house would have to be reorganized, we would definitely need a minivan (which we plan to get anyway). I honestly feel very relieved to let it go, and not be concerned about having another one. I know we would do what ever we have to if there would be another one, but it's not in the plans...right now. I think I have been confusing what I would do differently, with wanting to do it again.

Too much to think about

As a mom, you don't just take care of yourself, you take care of a significant other, your children, the house, their things, their school things... I get to a point sometimes when I realize I'm not taking care of myself. Skipping meals, skipping hair cuts, wearing clothes that are snagged or not the right fit. Everytime someone asks me what I want, I can only think of things I'd like to get the kids. I do want a bike, and have a list of other "wants", but those are not things I would expect to ask from other people. I have a son who isn't sleeping well, laundry that needs putting away or washed, a daughter with homework and her own calendar to keep, a husband to spend time with, and sleep to get. I completely understand now why so many women are SAHMs, and although I love my job (and it is only part-time), I wish I could be home more often to get stuff done around the house and have a chance to relax before my husband gets home.